The withered thorns that caress my tainted flesh. The shattered halo that shattered all our dreams. We've been condemned by the pages of false hope. We've been caressed by each others' lives in death. Blood stained sheets. Mask our grief. Will render out tryst incomplete. Trudging through the carcass of what used to be a living world. Ten-thousand lovers of God's forgotten child. We take our mark while on bent and bloody knees. Not saved alone but together we are exiled.
And so we're here again
I try to speak
Beg forgiveness
This fall from
grave is in my hands
I'll stay away
You're so
forgiving
I'm so wrong
Stinging tears
Burn resentment
All I
have
Is in your possession
I'll stay away
And my heart does not
Bleed for anyone
but my own
Am I loveless?
I can hardly find time anymore to update coz chool takes up most of my time. Last Tues I got the "stomach flu" (viral gastroenteritis) from a Tuna Casserole that I bought at school the night before. I skipped school that day coz I was having gastrointestinal unhappiness and I came down with a fever. Aldrin forced me to go to the hospital and so he came over and picked me up and we went to UST Emergency. The docter made me take a blood test, urinalysis, and fecalnalysis. Then I was sent home coz my tests were normal except for that viral gastroenteritis. I was just told to take paracetamol for my fever and oral rehydration salts to restore the liquids I keep losing and that I shouldn't take diatabs or any meds that would stop the liquids coz the virus would get worse or something. Anyway, I feel better now but I'm still loosing liquids and I'm not taking the oral rehydration salts that the doctor perscribed. Viral Gastroenteritis supposedly lasts 1-10 days. I wasn't the only victim of that Tuna Casserole. My classmate and her GF and her GF's sis also ate it and they aquired Viral Gastroenteritis also. I wanna sue that lady in that food stand in our school who made that Tuna Casserole, but I think it's too late to complain. Oh well.
Anyway, today I bought boots at a UK in Pureza for only Php150. I guess the lady who owned the UK was sick of seeing it coz when Aldrin asked her how much it was, she said "Kahit 150 na lang." I was shocked and I had to get it ;P It's reddish black and it looks like safety boots or army boots. It's so awesome!
Pinhead
Dark Prince of Pain, Angel of Suffering, Leviathan's Lord of the Damned.During the first World War, Captain Elliot Spencer witnessed many atrocities, his appetites were indulged, but it was through the Lament Configuration that a world of experience beyond limits would open up to him and eventually become his domain.
Pistonhead Cenobite from Hellraiser pt.3
JP Monroe, the owner of the Boiler Room. A collector of strange art, he acquired the Pillar of Souls for his collection. He was among those killed/converted by Pinhead
Butterball Cenobite from Hellraiser pt.3
Laslo was a despicable character in life. His gluttony for dark sin and perverse pleasure guided him like a moth to the flame that is the Lament Configuration, but with its opening came unimaginable pain and a life of servitude as one of 'The Cenobites', however, with his eyes sewn shut, tormenting him further, denying him the sights he would enjoy so much.
Dreamer Cenobite from Hellraiser pt.3
Terri, a homeless girl who found the Pillar of Souls for JP at the Pyramid Gallery. She was made into a Cenobite by Pinhead, with a cigarette coming out of a neck wound and the skin of her hands peeled back.
Chatterer
A child of misery who sought redemption from the Lament Configuration and only found the indulgence of pain. His solitude and misery forever accompanied by the echoes of the sound of his Chattering teeth.
CD Cenobite from Hellraiser pt.3
The Boiler Room's resident DJ Jimmy "See-Dee" Hammerstein found himself unwittingly recruited into hell's dark army in the form of a 'Pseudo Cenobite'. He stores razor edge compact disks in a retractable panel in his torso which he throws like shuriken.
Female Cenobite
Sister Nikoletta's devotion to her church waned as the seeds of lust and wanting grew secretly within her. A stranger seeking shelter sensed her needs and gave her the gift of the Box.
Channard Cenobite from Hellraiser pt.2
Celebrated neurologist Philip Channard, co-founder of the famed Channard Institute spent a lifetime trying to unlock damaged minds when in truth his own mind was the most damaged of all. Leviathan gave him his re-birth and obliged him to execute all of his putrid fantasies.
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Which Cenobite are you?
So, last Saturday we celebrated Aldrin's "Last Day of School." Rodrigo, Karlo's brother, Angel Alvin, James, Kris, Ryan, Edwin, Rowel, two of Karlo's brother's friends, Saulo, and Anver were there. I was the only girl as usual. There were lots of good food. I freakin' loved the Killah Win! Yummy pancreas and raddish soaked in vinegar! Our preferred poisons were Bacardi Oro, Napoleon, and Gilbeys mixed with an orange liquer and extra joss (it tasted like nasty cough syrup). We drank it in that order. The Bacardi Oro smelled and tasted horrible. I know I was the one who requested it and I admit I was being a pussy while drinkin' it and I know I suck for not drinking alot. But it's just that It tasted really bad (Why did it taste so good when we drank it at Grace's house?) and I've been watching House Season 1-3 dvd all week and cirrhosis or liver failure is NOT PRETTY. I'm a HYPOCHONDRIAC. When I find out about a disease or sickness and if I start thinking I may be having symptoms related to a that disease, I'm automatically convinced that I have that disease. And watching House isn't really helping since all these diseases and sicknesses are being mentioned and whatnot. After drinking from Ry's Bday celebration, I really felt involuntary spasms in the left side of my abdomen. After drinking from Johannes Bday which was just six days before celebrating Aldrin's "Last Day of School," I felt a weird feeling where my appendix is and I keep thinking it's gona pop any minute. Also, my liver is already fucked from all the drugs I did in the past especially when I overdosed on Coricidin (cough medicine) which contains chlorphenamine maleate. If you take meds with chlorphenamine maleate often, it can build up in your system which is fatal and it can kill you. I took 15 plus pills that time. I didn't want to get my liver fucked up even more than it already is. So I decided I wanna limit myself to getting drunk only once a month. That's why I didn't drink that much last Saturday. Anyway, we took pics of the celebration with Anver's digicam. Edwin kept trying to catch me on candid camera, but I kept showing up as a ghost on the LCD HAHAHA! ;P If anyone can get the pics from Anver, post it yo! ;P At the end of the night I ended up sleeping over at Aldrin's house. I went home 12pm on Sunday. I didn't get in trouble for some reason. I slept most of the day and when it was almost evening, I realized it was mine and Aldrin's monthsary. We both forgot about it and we didn't greet each other when we were together earlier in the day. What the shit.
So one day I was like "Hey Angel, Veve wanna go to Aldrin's "Last Day of School" celebration?" and they were like "Uhhh...no promises."
ONLY COOL PEOPLE ALLOWED IN THE FANG CLUB!!! *raises vampire fangs*
"JESUS CHRIST SUFFERED UNDER PONTIUS PILATE, WAS CRUCIFIED, DIED, AND WAS BURIED. HE DESCENDED INTO HELL. ON THE THIRD DAY HE ROSE AGAIN"
I just realized that Jebus was a ZOMBIE...
Hahaha!!! ;P This is hillarious!!!!
"BUT GOD RAISED HIM FROM THE DEAD FREEING HIM FROM THE AGONY OF DEATH BECAUSE IT WAS IMPOSSIBLE FOR DEATH TO KEEP HIS HOLD ON HIM." -ACTS 2:24
Reminds me of Return of the Dead ;P
I wonder who he ate first after he rose from his tomb.
Remember, ZOMBIE JEBUS LOVES YOU... for BREAKFAST, LUNCH, and DINNER!!! Hahahaha!!!
I've been watching zombie movies the past few days to satisfy my need for daily doses of BLOOD and GORE. For some reason it really brightens up my day when I see BLOOD and GORE. The zombie movie's I've watched so far are Day of the DEAD (Pretty decent GORE.), Return of the Living Dead parts 1-5 (Kind of corny, but it's ok.), Undead (Kind of funny. The GORE was awesome. I just wish there was more GORE.), Planet Terror (There's a lot of slime and people melting in this movie.), Night of the Living Dead 3D (IT SUCKED! I only watched it coz Sid Haig, Captain Spaulding from House of 1000 Corpses, is in it.), The Quick and the Undead (SUCKED BIG TIME!). What I noticed with zombie movies is that the reason why the dead return to life is because of some army fuck-up biohazard chemical leakage infection shit. It makes me wonder... what if something like that does happen. You wake up one day and you see zombies walking around, eating your family members. Shit, what would you do besides piss in your pants? Is that the kind of armageddon you would like to have?? I think I should own a gun just incase that day comes ;P Anyway, the non-zombie movies I watched with BLOOD and GORE are House of 1000 Corpses and The Devil's Rejects. I have a thing for Otis B. Driftwood. If there was anyone who I'd want to kill me, I'd want it to be him. He didn't look so attractive in House of 1000 Corpses, but he did in The Devil's Rejects. He's a necrophiliac too. That's a plus ;P Oh, does anyone remember how the Human soup in the movie Texas Chainsaw Massacre: The Beginning looked like? Yesterday, the Nilaga I ate for lunch looked exactly like that! It never looked like that before. The soup was reddish brown and the meat was pinkinsh. While eating it, I was imagining it was Human soup and I almost gagged! Hahahaha! I would probably suck as a cannibal ;P Anyway, here are some pics of some scenes in the movies I watched.
This scene is from Day of the Dead. The zombie's guts falls to the ground as he tries to get up off the examining table. Awesome.
This is also from Day of the Dead. Zombies are tearing some man apart. But I like it when the zombies go for the abdomen first and rip out the intestines and other internal organs.
This is from Return of the Living Dead. The infamous canister of 2,4,5 Trioxin, a chemical made by the army that, as a side effect, brings the dead back to life.
This is what comes out of the canister if you open it.
These two opened the canister and inhaled the 2,4,5 trioxin and became brain eating zombies.
The zombies in this movie only eats brains. It's funny to see them biting a piece of a person's scalp off.
This scene is from Undead. This zombie girl punches a hole right through an old lady's head, gets the brain and starts eating it. Real awesome.
This farmer from Undead shoots at zombies like hes fuckin' Antonio Banderas in Desperado! Hahahaha! It was soo funny ;P
"Run rabbit run!! RUUUNN RABBIT RUUUNN!!!" - Otis B. Driftwood from House of 1000 Corpses.
Otis performing a Holloween human sacrifice ceremony in House of 1000 Corpses.
"I am the DEVIL and I am here to do the DEVIL'S work." - Otis B. Driftwood from The Devil's Rejects.
Otis and his hot sister Baby Firefly (Sheri Moon Zombie, Rob Zombie's wife.) form The Devil's Rejects.
Baby, Captain Spaulding (Baby's dad), and Otis from The Devil's Rejects.
I think I'm gonna watch more BLOOD and GORE movies now, but I'm gonna eat lunch first ^-^
I felt like shit this morning. I had a hangover from yesterdays drink-up session* with Ryan, Edwin, and Aldrin, but it's not as bad as other hangovers I've had before. It gave me gastrointestinal unhappiness. I kept giving birth to the ANTI-CHRIST and it smelled like GRAPES. I don't know if I'm alone on this one, but drinking Napoleon always makes my fecal matter smell like grapes. I think that is sooo weird! Tell me I'm not the only one that it happens to! I also vomitted, but only once. The color of my vomit was dark red. I think the Napoleon, which had an odd un-Napoleon taste, made the mucous lining in my stomach disappear and in turn my digestive acids started melting my stomach and I basically vomitted out my melted stomach. Then I started feeling involuntary spasms in my abdomen where, I'm guessing, an important body organ should be. Maybe it's a phantom sensation of my missing stomach or an indication that I'm going to die pretty soon. I don't know. Anyway, I got home at 2:30pm and I needs me some sleep.
* The drink-up session was for celebrating Ryan's Beer Day. It was fun even if it was only the four of us. We got piss fuckin' drunk, engaged in nonsensical conversations, and food tripped (I never experienced eating halo-halo at 1:30am with chicken shit as a secret ingredient untill yesterday). Good times, good times.
I'm gonna pass out now. Guys, always keep this in mind: "Wag kang maging PUKE!" and "Wag mo kong bigyan ng TAE NG KALABAW!" Hehehehe ;P
The rules: The first player of this game starts with the "6 weird things/habits about yourself" and people who get tagged need to write a blog of their 6 weird habits/things, as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" in their comments and tell them to read yours... 6 weird things about me that you might not know:
1. I am a Myspace whore. I go on my Myspace all the time and when I don't Myspace for a while, I get withdrawl syndrome. Ask Aldrin. It's bad when that happens. I start frothing at the mouth and I start convulsing and vommitting out my inards... you know, that kind of thing ^-^
2. I tend to rub my lips when it's like semi dry/damp. I do this because I try to rub the dry skin off my lips. I hate the way it looks. Then when I'm convinced the dry lip skin is off, I put on Chapstick or lip gloss. But it eventually goes back to being semi dry/damp and I rub my lips all over agan. I think I do it so much that I sometimes do it subconsciously and people look at me like "Ugh.. what are you doing? FREAK!"...wutever.
3. When I use the lavatory to either defecate or urinate, I squat. I never sit on the toilet seat because I think it's digusting. I only sit on the toilet when there's like a paper toilet seat cover butt protector of nasty toilet germs...hehehe.
4. I hold my breath or cover my nose whenever I use the lavatory because it always has some gross smell. I think that if I smell that gross smell, I'd be tasting it and that whatever bacteria producing that smell would enter my body and melt my inards! >.<
5. I constantly check the ingredients on the label of a certain food or beauty/skin product befor I buy it. I do this because ther are some ingrediants in the food or beauty/skin product that can cause cancer or that is not good for your skin. Ever since Aldrin started informing me about which chemicals/ingredients are bad, I'v been conscious about it. He tells me these things because he's a CHEMIST WEIRDO FREAK and it's peetty useful information. So here are some chemicals/ingredients in food or beauty/skin products that I am so far aware of that are either good or bad for you:
FOOD: MSG- a potent exitoxcin which can cause seizures, brain tumours, etc.; Aspartame- used as a substitute for sugar are usually found in no sugar/zero sugar foods that can also cause seizure, brain tumours,etc.; Sodium Nitrite- is a meat and fish preservative that is carcinogenic; Microwaved Foods- mutates the food which in turn mutates your cells and then it becomes cancer; Refined Sugar and Coconut Palm Oil- just makes you fat; L-Carnatine- burns fat.
Beauty/Skin: AHA (Alpha Hydroxy Acid)- found in astringents which makes your face red permanently as if you use blush as a foundation or powder and it causes skin cancer when you're expose to UV rays; Titanium Dioxide- is a UV blocker found in lotions, face creams, compact powder, foundations, etc.; Zinc Oxide- also a UV blocker; Sodium Laureth Sulfate- aka "soap" is found in some face washes, toners,etc. and can clog your pores; Denatured Alcohol and Ethyl Alcohol- found in toners and facial cleansers dries your face; Salacylic Acid and Benzoyle Peroxide- gets rid of pimples.
6. I pick at my face when I'm bored. It doesn't bother me when I get scar marks from doing that beacuse I always think" Wutever, it's gunna go away in a week anyway..." and it usualy does. And when I get really bored... I dance to EBM infront of my mirror! Hahahaha! ;P
I was just reading my old deadjournal. It fuckin' cracks me up! ;P Read it if you want w/ the comments ;P
http://janehatesyou.deadjournal.com/
SOMEONE EDIT MY FUCKIN' TAB! IT LOOKS LIKE SHIT!
